Empty Handed

As I stand here I feel so empty handed 

Broken hearted and hopelessly stranded   

All the words are building in me 

Pounding under my skin and screaming to be let free   

My feet are cemented to the ground

Opening my mouth, I try but cannot make a sound   

I am fighting my bodies fervent urge to leave 

Because moments like this make it so difficult to believe   

You’re standing close enough so I can hear and see 

But when I reach my hand out, you turn and flee   

You draw me close enough to feel secure in your arms 

Then push me away, test my trust and set off my alarms   

Half my body is telling me to run away 

The rest of me is fighting , saying I have to stay   

I honestly hoped maybe in time you could be the one for me 

Thinking maybe time would create the possibility   

I drop to the ground and decide to let it all flow out 

Ive been silent for so long, now I am about to shout  

Its in my nature to do whatever I need to do to fix this tonight 

But when I look I your eyes I see that you’re the one not willing to fight   

So is it right to trust me heart or follow my head? 

Do I stay in front of you or deicide to run instead?                                

Don't Think

I see that look in your eyes

Those beautiful blue eyes 

And how you smile at me for no reason 

Saying words that keep my doubting heart believing   

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind 

Don’t think I don’t lay awake at night 

Dreaming about the possibility 

And what you and I would be like 

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind  

If it wasn’t for this life 

And the choices we made 

Maybe we might actually be together today 

But in the beginning we went our separate ways  

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind

Don’t think I don’t lay awake at night

Dreaming about the possibility 

And what you and I would be like 

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind    

Maybe if I’d known it wasn’t him 

Or if you had never let her in 

We can’t seem to get the timing right 

And now I’m with someone else on another night  

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind

Don’t think I don’t lay awake at night 

Dreaming about the possibility 

And what you and I would be like 

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind   

But even in his arms I’m looking to the sky 

Wondering where you are and if you’re missing me tonight 

Don’t think you aren’t always on my mind

Don’t think you aren’t the one I’ve loved all this time