Rather Be Lonely Than Break

A lonely girl will dream of love

But a broken one will hate its fate

A dependant ache inside your chest

A violent desperate change

There may be a million ways you want to love me

But not a million ways you could

Time will open your eyes to reality

And with each passing moment you’ll see

I’m not the girl you believe

There’s a beautiful idea inside your head

But I’m not made to fit that shape

I can bend and move but not change my frame

So if I try I know I will break

I’m not pretty and painted, no delicate grace

No natural beauty or porcelain face

Just clumsy and dented, a bit

Torn and rough around the edges

There may be a million ways you want to love me

But not a million ways you could

Time will open your eyes to reality

And with each passing moment you’ll see

I’m not the girl you believe

There’s a beautiful idea in your head

But I’m not made to fit that shape

I can bend and move but not change my frame

And trying will force me to break

I’m clumsy and dented, a bit rough

Around the edges, not smooth enough

To fit your shape, I could bend

I could move, but I would rather

Be lonely then face a violent, desperate fate

I'd rather be lonely than break,

I'd rather be lonely than break

....

I replayed the pain in your voice when I turned away

I didn’t want you to see the tears running down my face

You were so kind and so strong

I wish I could understand why it all went wrong

I let you walk away, holding back

What my heart was crying to say

Its killing me to let you go, but I have

To do what’s best for you, even though I know

You’re whats good for me, You’re

Everything I could ask you to be

But my heart was breaking and

I had to make a choice, had to make you leave

But I miss you, and I’m sorry

You’d never walk away on your own

So I had to be the one to end this tonight

To push you away and make a clean break

Cause I know you would always care and always fight

I let you walk away, holding back

What my heart was crying to say

Its killing me to let you go, but I have

To do what’s best for you, even though I know

You’re whats good for me, You’re

Everything I could ask you to be

Now my heart’s still breaking but

I had to make a choice that was best for you and me

I had to push you away, had to make you leave

But I miss you, and I’m so so sorry

Kinda Sorta

I was sitting all alone under that tree
Strumming my guitar so unsuspecting
Then you caght my eye and I cought my breath
My heart skipped a beat and ill never forget

That first time, first look,
one smile is all it took, and now im dreaming tonight
that you were mine. Cause what I see in your eyes is true
I kinda sorta think that I maybe falling for you

Then we were walking alone on the star lit street
Talking about who we want to be,
And you took my hand, and pulled me in
My heart skipped a beat and ill never forget

That first time, first touch
One kiss is all it took, and now im dreaming tonight
That you were mine. Cause what I see in your eyes is true
I kinda sorta think that I maybe falling for you

Well its been a year and im still smiling the same
You’ve got my heart in your hands
And im not ashamed to say
Its every time, every look
every kiss still has me hooked. Cause I know you're mine tonight
and I see our future shining in your eyes
I kinda sorta know that baby ive fallen for you…

Empty Handed

As I stand here I feel so empty handed 

Broken hearted and hopelessly stranded   

All the words are building in me 

Pounding under my skin and screaming to be let free   

My feet are cemented to the ground

Opening my mouth, I try but cannot make a sound   

I am fighting my bodies fervent urge to leave 

Because moments like this make it so difficult to believe   

You’re standing close enough so I can hear and see 

But when I reach my hand out, you turn and flee   

You draw me close enough to feel secure in your arms 

Then push me away, test my trust and set off my alarms   

Half my body is telling me to run away 

The rest of me is fighting , saying I have to stay   

I honestly hoped maybe in time you could be the one for me 

Thinking maybe time would create the possibility   

I drop to the ground and decide to let it all flow out 

Ive been silent for so long, now I am about to shout  

Its in my nature to do whatever I need to do to fix this tonight 

But when I look I your eyes I see that you’re the one not willing to fight   

So is it right to trust me heart or follow my head? 

Do I stay in front of you or deicide to run instead?                                

Don't Think

I see that look in your eyes

Those beautiful blue eyes 

And how you smile at me for no reason 

Saying words that keep my doubting heart believing   

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind 

Don’t think I don’t lay awake at night 

Dreaming about the possibility 

And what you and I would be like 

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind  

If it wasn’t for this life 

And the choices we made 

Maybe we might actually be together today 

But in the beginning we went our separate ways  

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind

Don’t think I don’t lay awake at night

Dreaming about the possibility 

And what you and I would be like 

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind    

Maybe if I’d known it wasn’t him 

Or if you had never let her in 

We can’t seem to get the timing right 

And now I’m with someone else on another night  

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind

Don’t think I don’t lay awake at night 

Dreaming about the possibility 

And what you and I would be like 

Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind   

But even in his arms I’m looking to the sky 

Wondering where you are and if you’re missing me tonight 

Don’t think you aren’t always on my mind

Don’t think you aren’t the one I’ve loved all this time